Day 1, Week 10

Hmmm,  I let myself have the weekend off and although I managed to not compleletly go off the rails, last night and today has been a different story.  I have now well and truly fallen off the wagon (let me just say BUTTERD POPCORN and CARBONARA) and I am lacking the motivation to get back on.  I didn't even make my bed this morning which for me is a major alert that something is up.  I am counting down the weeks now until I can get another lapband adjustment because I just dont feel that it is working for me the way it should.  A friend lent me the lapbanders book and it says that I should be having 1200 calories per day, (if that) BUT I have been having 1600 (not deducting my exercise calories) and have still been hungry.  I think I might actually see if they can fit me in earlier because I am feeling depressed about it all.  I was going to try to do some exercise tonight but I just can't be stuffed so instead I have decided to allow myself the rest of the day to feel fat, frumpy and blah before I kick myself up the backside in the morning and get back on track.  Wish me luck and  if I'm not back to my usual manic headless chook self tomorrow please feel free to kick me up the arse OK!