Operation Time to kick it

I really have no idea where to start with this blog so please excuse me if it ends up being more like an explosion of verbal diarrhea on the page.

Since my last post my weight and body composition has been totally erratic with it going down, going up, going down and finally going back up again.

Unfortunately due to an illness in September I had several weeks off training and despite trying to keep my nutrition on track in the beginning after the 2nd week of being laid up I went into 'feel sorry for myself mode' and it became less of a priority - in other words I self sabotaged.  On top of that I also had a few 'ladies troubles' which saw me being treated with a double dose of the pill which we all know is bound to increase ones weight as estrogen increases the storage of body fat.  Add to that a concoction of medication all with the side effect of weight gain and well it was inevitable that my weight would go UP.

I have not been outside of the 80kg range in over 10 years and so as you can imagine hitting the 90's (currently 91.2kg) wasn't the greatest feeling but whilst in the past something like this would of been a catalyst for me to go into depression this time it didn't trigger that kind of reaction. Shocked?  Me too!

What I did instead was say (literally)...'Well that sucks!!  Time to put an end to this shit' - 3 months later and still riding the illness wave with tests and medication coming out of me rear end is well and truly enough!

And so, Operation 'Time to kick it' was born.

Kick what exactly??  Kick this illness & Kick my own arse!

Goodbye: Antibiotics, Pill & Hormones, Cortisteroids, Nebuliser (still using preventer and ventolin as needed), Crap Food & Negativity.

Hello: Good Nutrition, Exercise, Positivity & New Goals.

I've been thinking about why I reacted differently towards my weight increase and have come up with the following.

1.  My weight doesn't define who I am....it doesn't make me less of good person because I put on a few kilos and it doesn't take away my ability to love the things about me that make me ME.

2.  I have new goals / direction with my training - more about this in next blog.

3.  My house is all clean and organised just the way I like it.

4.  I am sick of being sick and I'm ready to take my life back as I have so much happening at the moment with my rekindled relationship/family, business/es (which continues to thrive despite me being sick - I seriously have the most understanding and caring clients a girl can ask for) and of course at this time of the year Christmas and New Years plans...ONLY 9 MORE SLEEPS UNTIL SANTA COMES!!!!

5.  I was called 'fat & ugly' in a pinterest post (one of many) and whilst it was aimed to insult me and make me upset it actually did the opposite.  

I will admit that I did have a moment where I considered not revealing so much in my blog as I know that it will be read by the person who 'tried' to insult me and I can guarantee they will be like 'Bahahahaha it's Karma - look at the fat and ugly s*^t and so on and so forth'.  BUT, it was only a brief moment and I will certainly not allow them to break my spirit.

I've been fat so to call me fat now is hilarious....

I'm still 36 kg's from this person and I am never going here again but even if I did 'I' know (and mine really is the only opinion that matters when it comes to things relating to 'me') I would still be a beautiful person inside and out because I have grown to love who I am - warts and all.

  

6.  I am only 1 year away from the big FOUR ZERO and time flies way too fast to procrastinate.  As my birthday fell on a Monday I decided why not start from there.

Talking about birthdays.....Guess who completed 61 'Chest to Floor' BIRTHDAY BURPEES in 6 minutes and 51 seconds PLUS a Simple WOD of 100 Skips, 10 x Box Steps, 20 x Sit Ups, 30 x Ball Squats for 3 rounds ON her actual birthday!!! Yep MOI. Gotta say I was pretty proud of myself.

7.  Because I know that I CAN do anything I set my mind to and I truly believe that I DESERVE to be fit and healthy.

8.  Because I have helped/help to inspire and motivate others on their journey and its time to give that same dedication to myself as those people inspire and motivate me.

9.  I'm sick and tired of being consumed by the 'weight'.

10.  I have an amazing support base who have helped me to look at the non weight related achievements that I have made.

AND with that.....It's time to put one foot in front of the other as best I can and KICK SOME MAJOR BUTT!!!