Genesis Challenge Day 1, Week 3

“It is good to have an end to journey toward;

but it is the journey that matters, in the end”.

My gorgeous friend Marianne had her 2 week weigh in today and her results were incredible!!  A loss of 4.5kg and a total loss of 25cm (2cm off chest, 13cm off hips and 10cm off waist) - WOW!  This girl has worked her ghetto bootie off and deserves every bit of the amazing result - she really is an inspiration.  But, instead of being happy with these results she was beating herself up because she was hoping for more. 

Why do we insist on not appreciating the smaller steps that we need to take in order to get to our final destination?  Why can't we just enjoy the journey?

In conversation with Marianne and Kerriann today it came to my attention that I have not acknowledged that I am proud of how far I have come since losing my weight. 

For me I believe that this is because on one level I feel as though I cheated by taking the easy option and getting the lapband (even though I know that journey hasn't exactly been all roses) and also because I am still not content to just stay at this place that I am right now.

So anyway, it got me thinking and so this afternoon I spent some time reflecting on my Before Photos and some Photos of myself over the past couple years and whilst Yes, I am the first to admitt that I am still not 100% 'content' where I am now and so will still be striving to achieve my ultimate goals (in a way that I am proud off which is through bloody hard work and dedication), I am so much happier now than where I was then at 127.5kg, 110kg, 105kg, 100kg, 95kg, 90kg. 

I have lost a total of 56.5kg and even though I have put on weight again and am 10.5kg heavier I still achieved it and am nowhere near where I was.  I have covered an enormous distance on this journey and have got to experience what it feels like to lose an excessive amount of excess baggage that was holding me back (because I allowed it to).

I now realise that I should of acknowledged how great of an achievement it was to have lost what I had lost.  But, instead of taking pride in my accomplishments I took it for granted and beat myself up which led to distructive behaviour and self abuse. 

I write this in the hopes that I can stop people (including myself) from beating themselves over something that they should be proud of, so that they do take the time to reflect on the awesome acheivement and accomplisment that they have made - no matter how big or small.

Every step counts...

One step forward

Is a step in the right direction!!  

I am not this person anymore...

I am proud of my achievements...

I am happy to be where I am...