February 2018...

FEB 3rd

So, I'm not one to do things by halves AND cleaning helps me clear my head!  So with that being said I am absolutely fooboocachewed but we did it! It is amazing how much 'stuff' one accumulates over time and how 'un'clean something can be under the surface *sigh*, but every nook and cranny inside the house is sparkling, the camping stuff is all packed away and the backyard patio and yard is once again our place of home sanity.  As much as I love the feeling of accomplishment after I've tackled a mammoth task...I really wish I had a magic wand and instead of working like a trooper today to get shit done, could have been sitting in my meditation chair instead!   I was just saying to Mark how proud I am that despite the upheaval of my mad clearing and cleaning frenzy this week, I still managed to accomplish working, feeding the kids and a few hours of sleep! His reply "Yep, you sure did, but geez you were a bitch to live with"! Haha love your honesty babe!  

Feeling very tired but also very accomplished!

FEB 7th

But those who hope in the Lord, will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

I'm still working on my relationship with God and trying to find where the bible sits with me...its a personal journey and one that is quite eclectic given my spiritual beliefs. BUT, I can say that these words resonate strongly for me. Perhaps its because I was directed to them at a time I very much needed to read them, perhaps its because I believe in the power of holding hope and positive thought...either way the message is a powerful one!

My POSITIVE reminders for this month!

FEB 10th

Life doesn't always run smoothly! Sometimes, there are storms that you are faced with that have the power to completely capsize your entire being. Yep, those storms completely and utterly suck big fat hairy sweaty balls! But, you can choose the chaos and allow yourself to be drawn up into the whirlwind, drowning in the heaviness of emotion, gagging and getting pubes stuck in your teeth OR you can choose calm, anchoring yourself in positivity, in love, in hope, in gratitude, accepting it, for all that it is, in all its shitty fucked up glory, knowing that by centering yourself, you 'will' find the strength needed to push through and the storm 'will' pass!

I am learning that 'being positive' means different things to each person. For me its about ONLY focusing on the POSITIVES and not allowing any traces of 'what ifs', 'maybe's' or 'possibly's' to enter my mind! My rationale for this is, that by thinking 'everything is going to be okay', that is indeed what will be manifested. Whereas, if I were to focus on the fact that 'this may happen' or 'that may happen', then that is where the energy goes and as such, it becomes the reality I do not truly desire. Call it what you will; me just being an optimist, a wearer of rose coloured glasses, someone refusing to face the reality of the situation laid upon the table...but, I CHOOSE HOPE!

FEB 14th 

Happy Valentines Day - Bah Humbug LOL!  Here is a poem my sweetman wrote for me today :)

For MY gorgeous girl, the one, the only Natasha

No chocolates shall I bring thee.
Nor flowers in my hand.
This is no accident, truth...
In fact, twas ACTUALLY planned.

Both you and I, Sweet Deni

Hate worldy consumerism.
That says today we MUST give gifts
We wont be trapped in that prison.

On ANY given day of the year
To you, my Queen, I bring
Gifts tasty, beautiful, lovely.
Tis the pleasure of this King.

So today the gift I bring, Babe
Is an outcry of my love
In declaring to thee, "I love you"
My Precious Gift, from Heaven above

Oh gosh I love this guy so bloody much!

FEB 18th

Sometimes it doesn't matter how busy you keep yourself, or how much you focus on the blessings in your life, the emotions catch up and the tears just flow. Today was one of those days! And it's okay!

FEB 22nd

Despite all my positive thoughts and affirmations, my prayers for strength and staying busy to ignore the gravity of the situation,...bottom line is I'm scared! But...it is what it is until it is something different, and we just deal with it when and if we have to! Honestly, there are just not enough swear words right now!

FEB 24th

...This post will make all the others make more sense!

I'm hoping this picture has gotten your attention! Why am I posting it? To ask you ALL, both male and female to check your breasts!

Recently my little sister (36 years old) was diagnosed with breast cancer! She is urging her family and friends to be aware and to get checked! Early detection is the key! Don't wait for a special awareness month or share a 'red heart'❤ via a message!

Get those boobies out and have a feel or get a friend to feel for you (Mark Shilling once a day is plenty enough of a feel for you). 

If you don't know what you are feeling for, please book in with the GP!

Yes, I got checked, Yes they found something, Yes, they have started tests, Yes it is as scary as f%@&, BUT again...Early detection is the key! 

CHECK YOUR BOOBIES PEOPLE!

My beautiful sister and her family!

Photo by Three Wishes Photography

FEB 26th

My sweet man started working 3 days a week today. To say I miss him is an understatement, as I have grown so used to him being a stay at home hubby/dad. As daunting as it all is, it is also a new and exciting chapter in our lives. Omgoodness, this whole making my own cuppa thing is not good though, tomorrow I will have to get him to make me a flask before he leaves for work LOL.

GOODBYE FEBRUARY...

I got 10 hours sleep last night...whoo hoo! Busy day ahead so it was much needed. Best part was this morning as the boys gave me a kiss goodbye, Ace said "Mum, are you wearing make up"?. I'm like no matey, I haven't even had a shower yet. To which he replies "well you look really pretty".  Gosh my kids make me the proudest mumma ever!