Tashs Treatment Plan

Goal 1: To improve my resistance to stress

Time frame to achieve: 3 to 6 months

Healthy diet

1. Tea/Coffee Reduction

Confession time: Hi, I'm Tash and I am a 'bordom' tea/coffee drinker. I have at least 6-8 cups (well mugs actually) of tea/coffee per day. My first and last cup of tea are made with lite milk and each have a heaped teaspoon of raw sugar, In the others the sugar is reduced to 1/2 a teaspoon. My coffees, of which is usually only ever two per day, are both made with lite milk, and a heaped teaspoon of raw sugar. My morning coffee acts more like a very effective laxative, and the second is to give me a little more 'ooph', or because I'm sick of tea LOL. I will say, that even though I have 6-8 cups, I tend not to drink them all; I get side tracked and forget its there, and then it goes cold ewww! What I have noticed with my cuppas is that sometimes the 'milk' feels 'thick' in my mouth.  This I think is my bodies way of saying it doesn't want the milk.  So, based on lets go with 8 cups per day, that means whilst I may not be eating much, I am having at around 6, lets say 8 teaspoons of raw sugar per day, which equals 128 'wasted' calories, but thats not my focus right now. Oh, I also have a hot chocolate just before bed.  

Did you know that on average?

• A cup of coffee contains 60-200mg caffeine.
• A cup of black tea contains 40-80mg caffeine.
• A cup of cocoa contains 5-40mg of caffeine.

So whats that, 400mg - 920mg of caffine per day.  

With the recommended daily intake being 400mg/d, its all starting to make sense.  Especially considering that caffine can:

• Increase cholesterol 
• Increase risk of peptic ulcers by 72%
• Increase urinary excretion of phosphorus, potassium, magnesium and calcium
• Reduce iron absorption by up to 39% 
• Increase anxiety/insomnia at higher doses
• Impair glucose tolerance when consumed on an empty stomach

Natuopathic Plan:

• Swap two cups of caffinated tea for herbal tea e.g., cinnamon, chamomile, ginger, lemon balm.
• Swap late night cup of tea for sleepy herbal tea blend.
• Aim to drink last coffee of the day before midday.
• Swap one caffinated coffee for a decafe option e.g., 'Before you Speak Adrenal'.

My additions:

• Swap back to almond milk
• Reduce and then eliminate sugar in my teas, or try to embrace stevia
• Swap every second cup of tea for a herbal tea

2.  Try not to skip meals

A healthy diet can support immune function and repair the damage to cells by overproduction of hormones; adrenaline which suppresses the appetite, and cortisol responsible for the cravings.  This makes so much sense considering (1) I regularly skip meals eating only at dinner (family time), and/or once I am in bed and relaxed (which means going to sleep on a full tummy), and/or (2) I comfort eat; which admittedly is no way near the extreme it once was (aka I am no longer bulimic).  

Naturopathic Plan: 

• Choose foods for the mood
• Eat the rainbow
• Add a morning protein smoothie

Something that in the past helped me to reset and start feeling good was having my morning 'green' smoothies, so I am quite excited about restarting those again. I think my kids will be too actually, even Ace who is quite fussy when it comes to foods.

The naturopathic suggestion was to add some ground flaxseed, banana, leafy greens, berries, peanut/any nut butter with the Wellness road brand hemp or pea protein from Coles which is around $10. I love the fact that it is easily obtainable and affordable.

In all honesty, anything extra I can add to my diet during the day will be beneficial. Especially high nutrient dense foods (including omega 3's, protein, fibre, and good fats) as not only will it provide fuel for my body and therefore help with my low energy levels, it will also help to regulate my both my mood and blood sugar levels.

Top Ten Foods For your Mood.

• Spinach: Anxiety-relieving and mood-boosting. Source of magnesium (aids calmness) and folate (helps body to produce mood regulators; serotonin and dopamine).
• Pumpkin Seeds: Source of zinc (lowers anxiety levels), and essential amino acid tryptophan (converted by the body to serotonin). 
• Berries: Source of antioxidants (protect body against stress) and vitamin C (anxiety-relieving). 
• Avocados: Mood booster due to tryptophan, folate, omega-3 fatty acids and B vitamins (stress reducers).
• Tumeric: Antioxidant, anti-inflammatory, and anxiety-relieving.
• Chia & Hemp Seeds: Source of Omega-3s fatty acids (healthy fats that are anxiety-relieving).
• Brazil Nuts: Source of selenium (mood regulator, anti-inflammatory, and anxiety-relieving).
• Dark Chocolate: Anxiety-relieving, Anti-depressent due to phenylalamine (mood regulator).
• Chickpeas: Source of tryptophan, folate and magnesium (stress relievers) and low glycemic carbohydrates (<55).

Eat the Rainbow

Eating two or more, half cup serves of brightly coloured fruits and vegetables per day increases our antioxidant intake, which helps to protect the body against stress and supports immunity and healing by reducing inflammation and cell damage.

• Fruit: blueberries, cherries and other dark berries, apples, pears, dark stone fruit, red and black grapes, figs, papaya, kiwi fruit and pineapple.
• Vegetables: tomatoes, capsicum, beetroot, carrots, pumpkin, sweet potato, radish, artichoke, avocado, broccoli, kale, spinach, cabbage, red and black legumes, onions. 
• Herbs and spices: garlic, turmeric, ginger, cinnamon, fennel seeds, mustard seeds, chili, rosemary, thyme, sage, parsley, coriander, oregano, peppermint. 
• Sources of omega 3: small oily fish (sardines, mackerel, anchovies, herrings), walnuts, flaxseeds, chia seeds.

My additions:

• The items crossed out are things I dont eat because they are gross!

3. Increase Hydration.

Okay, I need to make another confession.  I do not drink anywhere near enough water on a regular basis! Water is essential to life! 50-80% of our bodies are made up of water, so we NEED it for all our chemical processes; digestion, nutrient absorption, movement, excretion, and temperature regulation.

Naturopathic Plan: 

• Increase water intake to 750ml per day before next appointment (12/10/23).
• The aim is to get daily water intake to 2 litres.

My additions:

• I have been adding some flavourings into my water to make it a little more enjoyable e.g., lemon slices, diet cordial, and herbal infusion tea.
• I also take my prescribed supplement N-Acetyl-Cysteine (to support liver, blood sugar regulation and addiction) in a glass full of water every morning.
• In swapping out some of cuppa teas for herbal teas, this will also boost my water intake.
• I also add 7 drops of Australian Bush Flower Essence 'Confid' to my water when I go to uni, to help me with my confidence in social situations throughout the day. With each sip I repeat the following affirmation.

I am confident in myself and my abilities, and am making positive changes in my life.

Lifestyle

1. Incorporate some daily self love practices

Naturopathic Plan: 

• Journal for 10 minutes each day writing down the following points: Today I am proud of myself because? Today I felt good when? Today I am grateful for? I love 'blah blah' about myself.  

I'll be honest, I'm resistant to this one, so I've decided to adapt it a bit until I am ready.

My additions:

• I will post my daily gratitude on social media.
• I will be proud of my accomplishments, and not solely focus on the points lost.
• I will graciously accept compliments by simply saying "Thank you".
• I will include a daily affirmation with my morning and night flower essence.

I meet and accept myself where I am and I choose to love myself today.

I meet and accept myself where I am and I am proud of all I achieved today.

2. Increase Movement

Naturopathic Plan: 

• Try incorporating an online yoga class daily such as Yoga with Adriene

This will help to support healthy weight management, insulin resistance and natural endorphin production. 

My additions:

• Instead of doing yoga daily, I will commit to 2 days per week.
• I will do my Lymphodema/Physiotherapy exercises 2 day per week.
• I will go for a walk, do a dance video, or do something else to move 2 days per week. 
• I will have 1 day of rest where anything goes e.g., nothing or something.

I am a little annoyed I waited until the good weather to get back into my walks because., a) theres the sun which I love more when I'm in the shade; b) Its magpie swooping season and the little buggers scare me; and c) my lymphodema is worse for heat, so I yet again self-sabbotaged.  

However, I plan to combat this by doing my Lymphodema/Physiotherapy exercises on the days in between so that way it assists me to remain consistent.

I love dancing; the movement, the freedom, the way it makes me feel.  Sometimes I just dance to whatever of the kids music is playing, or I do a dance workout video.  I especially enjoy the Fitness Marshall, and I do this other Walk Dance one.

I am looking forward to trying 'Boogie Bounce' with Sarah, although after watching the video I wondering if I'll be able to keep up, and are a little iffy on how the bouncing will go with my back.  On the other hand, I have read that boucing is ultra beneficial for lymphodema.  I am also ultra excited that the warmer weather is here which means swimming again, which also helps the lymphodema, and my mental health as I love the water.  Oooh just thought of going to the beach made me feel good.

Photo by Natasha Hurst

My ultimate goal is to get back to the training I was doing pre-surgery e.g., (crossfit, HITT/Tabata, boxing, running). Whilst I may not have always enjoyed doing it, I loved the endorphins it produced and the way I felt for it.  Plus I looked bloody good!

Ooh, I just remembered that I need to buy myself a wirefree sports bra.  I am still wearing the surgical bras I brought three years ago, and lets face it, they are doing nothing for me.  I've put it off for so long because the surgical process isn't finished, but I can't put it off any longer. 

3. Vagal nerve stimulation.

Naturopathic Plan: 

The vagus nerve is the longest nerve in the body. It is the major component of the parasympethetic nervous system or "rest and digest'. It is responsible for digestion, immune response, heart rate and controlling mood. Strengthening the Vagus Nerve can be achieved by the exercises below which help you switch from "flight or flight" to "rest and digest".

• Deep breathing (make sure your stomach expands outwards with each breath).
• Singing humming and chanting.
• Cold exposure (cold burst last 30 seconds of shower). 
• Exercise - walking or yoga is beneficial for brain and mental health.

My additions:

• Lymphodema exercises
• Playing guitar and singing
• Shower daily
• Exercise was spoken about above

Deep breathing is also a part of my Lymphodema exercises which is a bonus.

The vagus nerve is connected to your vocal chords at the back of your throat, which explains why when I'm feeling a bit low, I always gravitate to playng my guitar and singing power ballads. I received the most wonderful comment from Sorgi Stories the other day, and part of what was written said "...Maybe it's in one thing you do for someone. Like when your hands can do it, giving your gift of music to someone who needs it, ...the kind of gift that opens the human heart to itself and heals.That's love.There is a power in the recognition of loving yourself, in loving someone else, that fuels your spirit & soul through challenge...". So, I've decided that on the days I do play and sing, or even just do karaoke in my carport haha, I will record it and share here, in the hopes that I make a difference in your (you reading this) life, as well as mine.

In a household of six, it is not uncommon for the hot water to run out on me so I've pretty much already got the cold exposure covered hahaha. I will however, be mindful to which to cold just before jumping out on the days I do get some hot water.

Health Appointments

• Exercise physiologist
• General Practitioner (Appointment 4/10/23)
• Gynacology (Appointment 17/10/23)
• Naturopath (Appointment 12/10/23)
• Optometry
• Osteopath
• Chiropractic
• Podiatry
• Lapband
• Counselling (Appointment 25/10/23)
• Dental (Appointments 31/10/23 & 1/11/23)
• Lymphodema Clinic (Booked but forgotten when)
• Breast surgeon
• Lymphatic drainage massage
• Womans health clinic (Waiting on appointment)
• Diabetic Nurse

I look at this list and think 'Holy heck, it's alot'.  But, I am so proud of myself for being proactive in my health journey.  I am worthy of the time to attend these sessions, of ensuring that I am doing all that I can to achieve the best possible health outcomes for myself.

I've got a referral to the exercise physiologist so I will give them a call and make the appointment. Actually, I am in two minds about this one.  Maybe for now it would be more beneficial to use it for the osteopath instead until I am ready to increase my activity? Or maybe going will help to blend my Lymphodema/Physio and general exercise better?  I'll think on it a little more.

Before my next Naturopathic consult I need to get my GP to order a blood panel to check my B12, HBA1C, thyroid, and iron. I'm pretty sure it's been 3 months since my last lot of bloods and Diabetic review so I was due to get them done .  I also have to head back for another hoohar burn too.

Since I'm talking about making appointments, I also need to call and book appointments for my eyes, feet, back, and lapband, and ofcourse juggle the time to fit them in.

I am a huge advocate for seeing a trained professional in the field of mental health. Not only does it allow you to express your thoughts and feelings in a nonjudgmental space, but they can also provide beneficial strategies to help reduce stress. That reminds me, I will check with my GP when my mental health plan needs renewing.

I really dislike going to the dentist, but it is so important, especially considering that after years of vomitting, along with the reflux, I have worn the enamel off my teeth.  Since the back to back ops in 2020 I have had so much trouble with my teeth.  One of my major embarrassments is the gap in my smile due to needing to have a tooth removed during covid as I couldn't afford a root canal.  Sadly, I was booked for a root canal for the tooth on the opposite side but now they are saying it can't be saved and they want to remove it.  I am personally not will for that to happen just yet.  I will definiely be asking for a partial dentures or something like that.  They refused the falseys as the rest of my teeth are okay, which on one hand is a bonus, but on the other not so much.

And..., I just realised that I did not add my next lymphodema appointment into our Family Wall App, so I need to call and find out when that is as I dont want to miss it as theres over a six month wait each time.

I also need to make an appointment to see my breast surgeon, but as much as I want the operation to happen, I don't think I'm ready for another one just yet.  Feb/March next year would work, or even July because that's mid-semested break.  If I could find out in time to know whether to enrol in online/blended subjects that would be handy.

Ooh I also need to find somewhere locally that does lymphatic drainage massage. 

I am also waiting on an appointment with a womans health clinic to look at the menopause stuff.  I am hoping that by the time it finally gets booked, I will be managing it alot better with the changes I am implementing.

As usual this post became ultra epic.  If you have made it through reading all this, you are AWESOME and I am so APPRECIATIVE!

Until next time, 

LLP xo Tash

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Setting Goals...

Writing a wish list is an awesome step.  I am so proud of myself for acknowledging what needs to change in order for me to feel more vitalised and connected with myself (as an already perfect creation, in the image of God).  However, it is only one part of the process, one piece of the puzzle.  Turning those wishes into a reality is the next step.  I am ready, I am willing, and I believe I am worthy of the next step.  Which means, I need to set some goals! 

When I start the goal setting process I ask myself a few questions first.

• Why? 
• What? 
• How? 

The first and second I've already answered, now its times to look at how can I achieve them.  More specifically, to ask myself, what do I need to do to make my wish a reality?

To do this, I use the saying and acronym that Goals should be S.M.A.R.T!! 

• Specific
• Measureable
• Achievable/Attainable
• Realistic/Relevant
• Time Based

You can read more about each of the steps in details HERE, although the goals in that post no longer apply.

There are 31 items on my Vitality Wish List. Hmm, where to start? Lets go with the first item on the list, which is to 'Reduce and deal with stress better', more specifically 'To improve my resistance to stress', remembering that some things are legitimately outside of my control.

Lets talk about stress!

What is stress?  If everyone experiences stress for different reasons, how then does the one word cover it all?  I guess to sum in up, stress is the feeling of discomfort which surfaces when we are faced with something that theatens our optimal wellbeing.

Did you know there are three main types of stress that occurs in our daily lives, that can be experienced in combination with each other?

• Acute e.g., a random event such getting stuck in traffic.
• Acute episodic e.g., recurring uni/work deadlines.
• Chronic e.g., persistent events like health issues, financial struggles. 

Also, although I listed stress under the mind category, did you know that it actualy affects your body, and spirit too?  For example., anxiousness can feel like a knot in my stomach, and/or my mind racing at a hundred miles per hour. Afterwards, I am left with a headache, and perhaps even guilt because I lashed out at those I love, or because I comfort ate a crap tonne of things that I know that isn't good for my body. 

This is an automatic 'Fight or Flight' reponse as a way of self protection; whereby, when faced with 'stress' the body automatically kicks it up a gear or two and floods with stress hormones (e.g., adrenaline and cortisol) to essentially prepare you for battle. Not to say this is a bad thing, in fact it is ultra beneficial in many sitations.  However, if this response is relentless, the body becomes over exposed to the hormones, which can cause disruption of the bodies processes causing inflammation and damage to our cells, aka dis-ease and/or disease.  

With this in mind..., you know how I said I wouldn't go all hell for leather and do them all at once, and slow and steady is the best course of action? This is where things get a bit tricky because of the interconnction.  Given this, there are realistically some things that can be grouped together, which means doing more than one thing at once in a relevant and beneficially healthful way to achieve/attain my goal.  It may make more sense if you can see it on paper.  

Below, in bold is a general stress control tip, and underneath it is a point from my vitality wish list:

Goal 1: To improve my resistance to stress

Mental health counseling or other social support.

- Catch up with friends

- Counselling appointments

- Meet and accept myself where I am 

Healthy diet.

- Improve nutrition

- Hydrate

- Feel healthy and comfortable in my own skin again. 

Regular exercise.

- Move

- Physiotherapy Exercises

- Feel healthy and comfortable in my own skin again. 

Work-life balance.

- Take Medication/Supplements as prescribed. 

- Book in and attend medical appointments. 

- Attend regular naturopathic consultations 

- Keep budgeting/paperwork in check.

- Keep house clean and organised (including outside areas) 

- Routine, Balance, and Consistency 

- Quality family time 

- Intimate connection with my sweet man

Good sleep hygiene. 

- Improve quantity and quality of sleep

- Read or Listen to audio books

Meditation or deep breathing techniques.

- Focus on gratitude

- Daily Affirmations

- Daily Meditation

- Daily Scripture and Prayer

Schedule 'me time' at least once a week.

- Genuinely and graciously savour the time off from work

- Gardening

- Self care

- Feel connected with my local community again

 

Which leaves:

- Reconnect with my purpose

- Look at starting back at work 

- Quit smoking

- Get op ready 

If you look at whats left, even those can be grouped and fit in one of the categories above.  For instance., reconnecting with my purpose blends in with looking at starting back at work, which can be achieved by getting my mental health in check, working on a my work/life balance, and spending time in meditation.  Quitting smoking will enable my body to be more optimally ready for my next op, which can also be achieved with mental preparation and losing some weight, which also falls under the categories of following a healthy diet and exercise.

See what I mean about tricky!

Stay tuned, and in the next post I will go through my plan; this will include both that prescribed by my Naturopath and some things that I have/plan to implement to enhance it.

Thanks for reading, LLP xo Tash 

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Uni Daze...

Tuesday 18th August, 2020

For those who are unaware, I am  studying a Bachelor of Naturopathy at the Endeavour College of Natural Health (aka Uni).  Yesterday, semester 2, 2020 officially started.  For the next 13 weeks, Tuesdays are my lecture days!

Today is my very first lecture...starting at 8.00am.  It is currently 2.25am!  

I am thinking the insomnia is due to nerves, excitement, and...did I mention nerves!?!  I have to say, I am ultra glad to be attending from the comfort of my own home; lecture is via zoom due to Covid-19.  Oh my goodness, imagine the nerves when I need to attend campus! 

I'm anxious about making friends, keeping up with the workload, and especially being asked a question in class...oh gosh I hope I don't have to participate.  I fear that I will say the wrong thing and make a complete fool of myself!  Another thing contributing to the feeling of overwhelm is the workload.  How the heck am I going to remember everything?  How am I going to get all the work done?  Oh gosh, what if my grades aren't as good as the last course?  

*SIGH*  Breathe woman, breathe!  

It is now 2.45am...it has taken me 20 minutes just to write this small paragraph...oh Lord please help me!

I managed to drift off for a little while, just woke up again, looked at the clock and it's 4:44am.  Looked up angel messages, and found this!

"Angel Number 444 is a message that you have nothing to fear in regards to your life, work and Divine life purpose. When you take positive action towards your highest intentions, aspirations and goals, the Universe works in your favour and helps you to establish solid foundations and advance you along your path".

Ahhh thank you, ok, time for sleep, I feel better now!

Wednesday 19th August, 2020

Uni part 1...

Despite very little sleep I was up bright eyed and bushy tailed ready to start making a dream come true.

First up was two hours of Herbal Botany (8.00am - 10.00am), followed by two hours of Manufacturing (10.30am - 12.30pm).  

Thank goodness there was a 30 minute break in between as my bladder is not what it used to be LOL! 

I cruised through Manufacturing as I did it as part of the Complementary Medicine degree; I made the Elderberry and Echinacea syrup (HERE) for my assessment (and, got 97% for it).  As it is mixed with Herbal Botany for this degree, which I haven't done before, I couldn't get an RPL.  Hence, why I'm redoing it.  I don't mind too much though as its a topic I really enjoy, and as the saying goes 'practice makes perfect'.

On the other hand, Herbal Botany is intense!  All I can remember so far is the plant classification memory key words: King Phillip Comes Over For Great Tantric Sex!  Haha, ofcourse I remember that, I bet all 90+ students that attended with me remember it!  

I actually think the subject should be spilt into two separate subjects.  Thank f@€% there is no exam!  There is four written assessments though!

Break Time...

I was so thankful to get a 90 minute break.  It gave me just enough time to have a yummy lunch, check in with Mark and Jazz, and go for a walk with Ace.  

Technically he rode ahead of me, then would back track to come and get me.  It made a great incentive for me to keep a good pace so he didn't have to ride so far.  At one stage I was walking as fast as my legs allowed, and I had the time down to 12:09 min/km.  But, my poor legs struggled on the last stretch and so the pace dropped!  Not that it is about speed though, I simply just want to be moving and hopefully reaching my 10,000 steps per day.  I only managed 7000 today, which is better than nothing considering I sat on my butt for most of the day.  I'm thinking that if I slow my pace down I will be able to go further.  I shall have to test out my theory next time!

Uni part 2...

At 2.00pm it was back to the laptop for the next zoom lecture.  My second subject is Herbal Medicine Materia Medica 1, and oh boy it is a doozie!

It has one written assesment and two exams.  One is at the half way point and is open book.  The second, is at the end of the 13 weeks, and is closed book eeekkk!  It should be the other way around hey! The thought of having to memorise medicinal information for 65 herbs has me mind boggled. 

The fact that I find the content super interesting, and really like learning about it helps though.

What I'm not so keen on, is the interaction component of the lectures.  Not because I was put on the spot and asked a question, theres too many of us to do that.  It's because the lecture went 30 minutes over time due to people "sharing" about their experiences.  Okay so they were herb related, but I just want to learn the material we are being graded on.  

What's worse, is that because of all the interruptions we didn't get to finish the lecture material and now its additional homework, without any of the lecturers pearls of wisdom.

At 5.30pm I finished school for the day.  Well, the zoom lectures anyway...

I still had homework and lots more study to get through!

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It comes in threes...

For those unaware, I am now waiting on three, yes '3', different operations!

1.  Lapbad port revision

I discovered in January 2020 that my port has done a 180 degree flip.  This means that they are unable to get the syringe in to draw any fluid out, or put any fluid in.  I got called in to have the operation done only a few weeks after the mastectomy, but for obvious reasons said no! 

2.  Additional Breast Surgery

More tissue transfer to get the breast size even, and provide fullness.  As well as fix and smooth out the scarring.

3.  Hysterectomy 

This has been recommended by both the team at the familial cancer centre, and the gynecologist due to previous abnormal checks, high risk and various issues.  Paperwork has been submitted and I am on the 90 day waiting list as Category 2.  

Waiting isn't so bad...

In saying that though, due to Covid-19 putting a hold on elective surgeries, when they will happen is anyones guess.

As much as I'd love to get them all over and done with, this waiting period is allowing me the opportunity to focus on getting in tip top shape and becoming 'op-ready'.  

Confession Time...

Unfortunately, during my recovery time, the sedentary lifestyle has seen me put on a whole 8 kilos eeekkk, and I have reached a point where I am ultra uncomfortable in my own skin.  I am thankful that I realised my downward spiral before I entered triple figures...just!

My Goal...

-  To be op-ready; mentally and physically strong, healthy, and lighter!

My plan...

- Move more by walking (aim of 10,000 steps per day) and doing physiotherapy exercises.  Not only will this improve physical stamina and strength, I am hoping that coupled with the next goal it will see the scales and tape measurement numbers go down.

- Be more mindful of my unhealthy food choices, and make small gradual changes to improve nutrition.  e.g. drink more water, reduce sugar in cuppas, cut back on crappy carbs!

- Keep my mental health strong by attending psychology appointments, and keeping it real!

-  Most importantly, I will listen to my body, and not get down on myself if I don't reach my steps, or am too sore to do my physio session.

My thoughts...

I am pissed off at myself, and totally embarrassed to be here in this place again!  But, I will forgive myself, and I will show myself love by working hard to reach a place where I will stand tall with pride.  I've done it before so I know it can be done, even with the restrictions that I face.

When I get there, I will share my before photo, so be sure to stay tuned!

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Half way there...

Here we are, halfway through 2020, and what a bizarre six months it has been.  When this year started, I never would have predicted the 'unprecedented' events that have occurred thus far. 

What about you?

I can't say that it has completely gone in a different direction than I thought, Covid-19 the exception ofcourse.  And on a personal level, I don't believe that its been my worst year ever, I can think of others where rock bottom was surpassed.  On a global level however, there is no denying that the number of deaths from this worldwide pandemic is extremely sad.

With this in mind and since we are at month 7 of 12, I thought it would be a great time to take a quick inventory of my yearly goals and see if there needs to be a change of direction entirely, or just some simple adjustments so to adapt better.

How would I sum up, what has happened to me in 2020, so far?

Admitted to hospital for unexpected reason!  Admitted to hospital for expected reason!  Admitted to hospital unexpectedly!  Admitted to hospital for expected reason!

Then lots of tests, and various trips back and forth to hospital!

What silver linings have I found in the midst of this years craziness?

I have had guilt free time off work/study to rest and recover.  As well as, had lots of connection time with my family.

What I've learned about myself,  others, and life in general this year?

Firstly, and I think everyone would agree, is that life, is un-freaking-predictable!  I mean, I kinda knew it was, but after this year, I really know!  Can you relate?

As for myself and others, I don't really know what to write for this one; maybe that I'm a cynic and "...believe people are motivated purely by self-interest rather than acting for honourable or unselfish reasons"(Goggle, 2020).

Oh gosh, thats not very positive hey!  It is however, real!

More seriously, something I've learnt about myself (well more confirmed) is that doing nothing (aka resting, resting, resting) makes me feel lazy; worthless and lacking purpose.  I know its only temporary, and its for the purpose of recovering, but contrary to what my mother would have you believe, I actually do not do 'doing nothing' very well.

What I'm most proud of myself for doing, being, learning or understanding this year?

Funnily enough considering what I wrote above, I think it would have to be surrendering and resting.  Yes, to the point of actually becoming quite lazy, well I feel as though I am anyway!  

In saying that, the house is still clean, kids have been getting fed each day, and bills and paperwork is up-to-date.

What word sums up your 2020 experience?

I think it would definitely have to be - RESILIENCE!  

Although I despise it when people say "oh, you're sick AGAIN"!, I must admitt that sometimes it does indeed feel like its just one 'negative' thing after the other.

But as the quote says, I also have lots of blessings to count.

2020's Goals Revisited

*First and foremost my goal is to address ALL health issues.

-Heal and recover from mastectomy so to be ready physically and mentally for revision surgery.  

-Address Gynocological issues.  

-Get lapband fixed.

*After that, its to resume study, and then look at resuming work (once Covid-19 behind us).  In regard to work I'm thinking that some changes are on the cards.  What they are, or what they look like right now, I'm not sure.

*Given that we are getting the Covid-19 payment each fortnight, which is great considering I lost my income, I'd like to put some money aside!  Saving enough to put into a term deposit would be awesome.

*Managing my pain better so that I can heavily reduce, or better still, eliminate my pain meds and detox my body.  This is especially important so that the medication will be effective after the next operation/s.

To be honest with you, it would also help me get some productivity back in my life, and make study less of a challenge.  

Lately my mind is far too consumed by the ever present thick fog which just lingers there to numb the sensory receptors of my brain so that I do not feel pain or anything else for that matter.  Even the simple task of writing this blog has taken what feels to me an eternity to compose, as the words that form within the suffocated confines of my cranium get muddled as they move to my fingers or even to my lips to be expressed in a manner which makes sense to a those which are not in the same intoxicated state of mind as mine.  

In addition, weariness encompasses every inch of my being, and I find myself lying idol for most of the hours which make the day.  My body once so strong feels frail and fatigued.  

The time in which it has taken just to write these words frustrates me to the point of wanting to throw this device across the room but I would then be alone with no outside stimulus of which this provides, and so instead I just sit here continuing to place babble upon the white space before me sighing loudly to release the heat rising within just like a fire breathing dragon.   Oh the heat, yes that glorious internal combustion which for me, at this moment, just adds salt to the already festering wound.  

But, I digress, so I pause,  contemplating whether I have expressed all that I feel needs conveying, although if truth be told, I've since forgotten the point of my writing.  Self expression I assume!

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Time for a realignment...

Of late my positive polly crown has been a little crooked. Sure I use humour to lighten the mood here and there, but thats just a smoke screen; a ruse to disguise how I'm really feeling; albeit a poor excuse of such. In addition to my crooked crown, my face has been adorned with a crooked smile, or more to the point a 'smirk'; yes even the mask I usually wear to disguise the truth is not polishing up so well. In other words, I have been a negative nelly and the things that would usually not get to me, or that I would just easily roll with; you know, like water off a ducks back, has really been ruffling my feathers.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that you can't keep it real. Hell, I'm a big advocate of not shitting in someone's back pocket, or my own for that matter. Plus, I believe that you've gotta meet the dark to truly know the light, you know the duality of life! In addition to that, there's a saying that goes along the lines of "too much of anything isn't good for anyone", whichs aligns with Chinese medicines philosophy of too much of one emotion causes imbalance which in turn leads to dis-ease; therefore, balance is the key to achieving and maintaining optimum health.

So, what I am trying to say in my totally long winded arse about way, is this...

Even though my life situation at present is not picture perfect, I would rather count my blessings and be thankful for each and every one of them, than to focus on my problems and allow them to darken, depress and destroy me. Happiness and Positivity is quite simply a choice....you either choose 'to be' or choose 'not to be'!

Given that this is something I am deeply passionate about, why the frig have I been such a sad sack for so long!?!  Regardless of the current imperfections and the dysfunction within my life I CHOOSE to be happy!

Now, as much as I would love for it to be a case of, 'I have said it and so it shall be'!  Truth is, whilst happiness is indeed a way of life and not a destination, you still need to work at it. 

So, I ask!

What do I need to do in my life RIGHT NOW in order to be HAPPY on all levels, and as such ALIGNED WITH MY SOUL PURPOSE?

As I have spoken of in previous blogs where I've listed my happiness goals (Here & Here), all levels refers to mental, physical, emotional, spiritual and essential needs;  my overall WELLBEING!

Tash's Realignment To Do List

MENTAL

Read

(novels that inspire and allow me to escape reality)

Blog More

(At least once a week)

Improve state of mind by keeping a daily Gratitude journal

To genuinely and graciously savour the time off from work and study

(Reveal in the time to do things that I don't normally have time to do)

PHYSICAL

Take Supplements 

(Restore, Digestaid, Parex)

Eat nutritious meals

(morning green smoothies are a must)

Slow, Steady, Deliberate Movement Daily 

(Walking, Dancing, Yoga, Riding, Swimmimg...anything).

Book in with Optomery School for eye test

EMOTIONAL

Gardening

(Herb, salad and vegetable patch)

Catch up with friends

Roadtrip to somewhere in nature

SPIRITUAL

Daily Mindfulness Meditation

Daily Affirmations

Bible Study and Prayer

Daily self love exercise

(Mirror work and list)

ESSENTIAL

(Non-Negotiables)

Keep house clean and organised 

(Clean External = Clear Internal)

Routine and Consistency

Quality family time 

(Night time snuggles)

Reconnect with my man

Tell / Show my family I love them

Daily Text / Call with Mum

Weekly contact with Skeet

More regular contact with Uncle 

Daily aromatherapy blend in diffuser

Morning shower followed by aromatic dressing

Electronic free day once a week

This photo makes me happy!

What is something that lights you up with happiness? 

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Talents, Virtues, Purpose 2019

So I'm a little bit behind on answering the manifesting questions posted by the lovely Sonja on the Mindset Wellness group page (check it out HERE), but better late than never I say. Also, to be completely honest with you, I've been in complete holiday mode.  Mind you they go back tomorrow, so I have had to haul arse and start to get back into some kind of routine...uniform and shoes ready, schedules printed, books ready, sleep/wake pattern slowly re-established.

Anyway, heres a little recap of what we have covered so far!  Click the LINKS to see what I'm talking about, if you haven't been follow OR for a refresher, if you have!

Day 1 - I Released 2018

Day 2 - Making Magik 2019

Day 3 - Finding My Purpose

And now here we are at Day 4 - Talents + Virtues + Purpose!

What are your talents?

Ok so I'm just going to put it out there that I find this question incredibly difficult. I really don't do well speaking myself up. I think its because I really dislike those who are 'egotistical' (you know those that have their heads so far up their own arse they can't see anything or anyone around them) and a question such as this one means tapping into that place. But, as the point of this is stripping back the layers, here goes...I also totally get that there is an element of ego needed in order to succeed in business...I guess there is a fine line though hey, between selling oneself and selling that which you can provide.

*I am a quick learner

*I am musical (sing & play guitar, dabble on other instruments)

*I am empathic and compassionate

*I am creative/artistic

*I am good at organising things whether that be events or clutter

*I am strong willed (some may say stubborn)

*I can express myself in words

*I have a Certificate of Aromatherapy, Nutrition, & Shiatsu and a Mastership of Reiki.

*I have a Diploma of Remedial Massage and am passionate about using my skill to help others.

*I can make a mountain out of a molehill...so I know normally this is a negative saying and yes I do have a tendency to also veer on that side of things, but I think of the saying more in terms of the ability to make a little stretch. For example. Money! Its amazing how one can survive, thrieve (depending upon your interpretation of the word) with minimal income.

What are your values?

Here's just a few off the top of my head.  I am sure that if I took extra time to really ponder and analyse, that I could come up with more.

*I strongly believe that good manners and good moral standards cost nothing and yet get you a long way in life.

*I believe a warm friendly smile, a firm welcoming handshake and an embracing hug are invalable gestures to share.

*I believe that perfection is a state of mind although still something worth striving for.

*I believe that being true to who you really are is a very important life process.

*I believe in keeping it real, in not hiding your emotions, in showing your truth as you see it.

*I believe in being open minded, and in the willingness to learn new things.

*I believe that knowledge is not power, the way that knowledge is applied in order to obtain wisdom is!

*I believe that respect is not given based purely upon age or status, but something that is earnt. This does not mean however, that rudeness is acceptable until that has been achieved.

*I believe in honesty at all costs as the truth always comes out in the end...integrity!

*I believe that everybody makes mistakes but its how you own them and work to amend them that really matters. I believe in second chances.

*I believe that if it serves to protect yourself and those you love, cutting toxic people from your life is of paramount importance.

*I believe that a positive attitude and an optimistic outlook sure beats the alternative of bleakness.

*I believe that you don't always have to agree in order to get along, but you must find a mutual ground where you can agree to disagree.

What is your purpose?

WOW, what a question!

I believe it is sharing my talents with others, to work towards making a positive change in the world.

What are your current career fantasies?

I want to have a career that helps others to feel whole, to feel truly connected to who they are, to be healthy on all levels mind, body and soul.  To be the lighthouse in their lives...corny hey!

How do these align with your values, your talents and your health/wellness intentions?

I believe that for the most part who I am and what I stand for are all in alignment.

As I have mentioned previously though, giving up smoking and getting myself back to that place that radiates health (albeit a sterotypical image) is high on the agenda so that I actually feel as though I am walking the talk!

What are your personal intentions?

I want to live in a way that I would be proud of my boys to follow in the same footsteps...to lead by example!

What are your professional intentions?

To share my knowledge, experiences and wisdom with others, so that it may lead them to realising their truest potentional.

What are your philanthropic intentions?

Hmmm another tricky question...let me see!

*I guess the biggest one is the fact that I am an organ donor. I know that right now that doesn't mean much, but hopefully when my time of this earth comes to end, it will make a huge difference in someones life.

*I plan to donate massage vouchers to local fundraisers. I struggle with this a little as on one hand it is also for personal gain, in the sense that it advertises my business. In saying that however, it is not purely about gaining anything but also giving and supporting.

*I would like to give of my time to a worthwhile cause. When I was on the Relay For Life committee, I felt a real sense of purpose, a part of something worthwhile. I want to feel that again, to feel as though I am helping to make a difference.

*I would like to look at donating blood this year. In the past I haven't been able to due to a blood disorder, but I haven't enquired recently and maybe things have changed...since my tonsillectomy my immunity has improved so maybe it will be possible?!

*I plan to continue to pick up rubbish when I am out and about, rather than just walking past it.

*I plan to repurpose and reduce waste.

Well, thats about all I can think of at this stage, thanks heaps for reading. Be sure to stay tuned xo

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