Its amazing what you take for granted!! I was so unhappy with how I looked when this photo was taken and now all I want is to get back there again....this is what I am working my butt off to achieve and I promise myself that when I get there I am going to SMILE and most importantly I am going to be well enough to really enjoy it.
Well as you can see, I am there and I am reasonably healthy but I am not smiling! I am still not happy with how I look and although I know I have come so far from where I was it feels very unrewarding. Will I ever be happy? Will I stop changing the goal posts? Will I ever be able to accept a compliment without chringing on the inside?
My lapband specialist has said that she is happy with my weight where it is, which I believe is WRONG as I am not even within my healthy BMI range yet. I told her that ideally I would like to be between the 69kg - 74kg range which means I still have between 5 - 10kg to lose. I manged to talk her around to agreeing to the 74kg but she believes that 69kg is too little for my frame and that I would look terrible...I guess seeing is believing.
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I welcome all messages and comments that are positive and encouraging. If however you do have some criticism please make sure that it is constructive rather than destructive. Much Love, Light and Peace XOXO Tash!