Day 2, Week 4 - Melbourne Cup Day

An update which is unfortunately not a positive one...

I quite often hold off on posting blogs like this one because as I have mentioned previously I 'try' to always be positive but today I decided too bad - I am human and that means I too have days where I just feel like shit and today I am going to admitt it rather than try to hide it - I FEEL LIKE SHIT!! 

I have no motivation to do anything (its 10:30am and I am still in bed), my house looks like a bomb has hit it, I have washing piled up and I just simply can't be stuffed doing any of it!  I just want to stay here under the covers and hide away!

This feeling started last week, Week 3 which I have to sadly say was a complete write off as yes I did succumb to the pressure of emotional/comfort eating which has only made me feel like a big fat lump of poo and I have a pimple to show for it - which is a rare occurance!

Even my tummy was against me last week and was so bloated that I looked pregnant!! I mean come on, I didnt even look pregnant when I was bloody pregnant....oh well the joys of being female, thank goddness its finally gone down now that my moontime has arrived - late as usual!

*Sigh*, On top of feeling like this my boys have been sick, especially little Jazz who has even had me up at all hours of the morning making a mad dash to the emergency department - Asthma SUCKS!  So lack of sleep has not been helpful and yes its showing - I look like crap!

Anyway, I plan on turning this feeling around as much as possible today by firstly getting up out of this bed and cleaning my house, doing my washing, going shopping, getting my self organised for the remainder of the week ahead and then study and life! 

I am feeling so bombarded with everything at the moment, I can't believe that its nearly the end of the year.  I am so far behing on my school work its not funny (life takes over - I now have 10 clients on top of my job at the paper which has also increased in hours and ofcourse family and friends too) and I want to finish by the end of the year so that means I cannot afford to be a slack arse like I am right now!  School has been really good and are putting on intensive module workshops everyday over November/December so that people who are behind can catch up but that means I need to shuffle my life around so that my mornings are free.

I don't mean to complain about it because its great that business is good its just tough juggling it all, adnd yes its what I choose to do but sometimes I wish I could just pick 1 thing to focus on and stick to it.  Photography/Journalism, Music, PT, Massage, Nutrition.  I know, I know it won't happen - I'm too passionate about all of them and as a friend of mine said to me a couple of weeks ago - I'm not someone who is just one thing, I'm all of them, they are all me.

PAUSE....

I just got a phone call from Jimi the Music Man to do some Jammin' with him, what an awesome opportunity - OK this is the motivation I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and get my life in order!!  Time to get out of bed.

Thanks for listening to me ramble! xox