The past week and a bit (since court) has been a roller coaster of emotions and unfortunately my blog has suffered which totally sucks as it was my sanity, my way of getting everything out of my head to be better able to deal with it all. In all honesty though, I just didn't have the energy or know what words to use to clearly express what I was feeling. Well there were some words but it would of been an entire blog of only profanities...f$*#^+% c!@# b#$%@ h*#% s#$^!!!!
I will admit that I was feeling a sense of guilt for not blogging as often as I had set out to do, but then I realised that in order to write about my life, I actually need to be living and experiencing all aspects of it first. Sometimes it is just too hectic to find the time to blog, because believe it or not I do actually sleep...sometimes! A little comment left on my facebook blog page helped heaps too.
So...what have you (& I) missed out on with regards to my daily meditation? Let me summerise it...
Daily Meditation - September 25 to September 30
Overthinking can lead to more confusion! Confusion leads to negative self talk!
We need to make amends with those that our self-centeredness from our need to control has impacted. The main person is ourselves!
Support is crucial for becoming more whole. Whether the support is from family, friends or an outside source. It is not a sign of weakness but a sign of strength to seek help.
Being indispensable does not automatically bring security.
I do not need to be 'doing' in order to give of myself, I can do that just by 'being'.
When we break life down into smaller manageable components and take it one step at a time, it is much easier to deal with.
So with all of that said I am 'up to date' on my Daily Meditation, my Scripture Writing Plan has ended, as has my intagram photo-a-day (thank goodness for that one...why I did it again when I haven't enjoyed doing the past couple is beyond me) and today is the start of a new month...a new opportunity for change (Ooh I still have a couple of change blogs in the pipeline) and growth (I've got some garden updates to share also).
What I am trying to say is I have removed any expectations from myself with regards to this blog. I am not going to promise a meditation a day or a post a week, but when life allows you can bet that there will be a post or more telling you guys all about what is going on in this head and heart of mine; the raw and unscripted babble of my life and everything within it.
As much as I love to think that I am superwoman and can juggle a million things at once, the reality is that I only have two hands and 24 hours in the day (that's 1440 minutes or 86,400 seconds LOL).
I guess I'm just going to have to settle for being 'super' ordinary...I can deal with that!
Until next time sending love, light and peace to you xox.
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I welcome all messages and comments that are positive and encouraging. If however you do have some criticism please make sure that it is constructive rather than destructive. Much Love, Light and Peace XOXO Tash!