Sharing Fathers Day with Two Dads...

Today my boys and I got to show their Dad Glenn (RHS) and their Step Dad Mark (LHS) how special they are and how thankful we are to have them both in our lives. We all had so much fun playing footy and cricket together at the park and it was good to have a few good laughs even if it was at my expense LOL. I am so grateful that we can all get along and co-parent our amazing boys ❤.

I love that my boys know that just because Dad and I aren't together anymore that it doesn't mean we stopped loving each other, its just different now and we love them just the same. 

I'm certainly not saying it is always smooth sailing because lets face it, all the things that led to the breakdown of the relationship are still there; it's just that they don't consume us in the same way as before. 

I loved Glenn so much, I still do; I was just not 'in love' with him anymore and to be completely honest, on some days I didn't like him very much. I am not pointing the finger at him and saying it was all his fault because I know that I own my share of it all too. No one can ever accuse either of us for not trying because we gave it everything we had but it had just run its course and in the end was making us and the boys unhappy. 

Anyway, here we are...both of us able to put our differences and hurts aside for the sake of our beautiful boys and to co-parent, albeit it in a blended capacity. I am happy to call Glenn my mate and know that he will be there if I ever said I needed him, just like he knows I would do the same for him. 

My ideas about the key to making co-parenting work is; releasing ourselves of past hurt, putting our differences aside, genuinely showing love and concern for the other parent and not ever making the kids feel like they need to choose sides, being on the same page (there can be some slight modifications) with regards to acceptable behaviour and routines and, always ensuring that the kids are our highest priority in life, above all else.

Maybe it is a natural thing for me as my Mum, Dad and Step Dad all worked together so well in raising me and for their ability to do that, I will be ever thankful.  

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Scripture Writing Plan - Day 4

Day 4 - Psalm 62: 5 - 8 (KJV)

5.  My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.

6.  He only is my rock and my salvation: he is my defence; I shall not be moved.

7.  In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.

8.  Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us.

My Interpretation

So at the end of yesterday's psalm it was about the writer feeling bullied and calling people out on their bullshit AND so this is him / her reaffirming their belief that God will save them, will protect them from all that bullshit and that the opinion and actions of others really do not matter.  They are also telling the others to open their hearts and let God in so that they too can be saved, thus ending the bullshit.

Can you tell that I think bulling is an absolutely unacceptable form of behaviour? 

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Fathers Day 2016

Happy Father's Day!!

Well it's that time of the year when we celebrate our Dad's.

What I would give to have one more second with my Dad.  To hear his voice; to feel his embrace; to just sit in his presence.  

Anyway, I am not going to get all sad and teary because it is what it is and I miss him every single day but nothing can change that.

I do often wonder though what he would be like now?  All I have in my mind is an image, memories of the person I knew 20+ years ago.  He was 36 when he left this earth and although now I am older than him, I will always be his little girl.

Even though my Dad could never be replaced, I was lucky enough to have a wonderful Step Dad that stepped up and filled the role when my Dad couldn't and for that I feel truly blessed. 

So to both my Dad and to my Uncle Geoff (my Step-Dad), I say thank you for loving me unconditionally, for being my Dads. 

And to my Mum who has always felt that she needed to play both roles in order to ensure that my sister and I never felt the missing love of a parent; I want you to know that your love alone is enough, you are enough! Thank you for always trying so hard to be both parents.

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In touch with a power greater than oneself...

"Those who lose dreaming are lost" - Australian Aboriginal Proverb.

"I admit I don't know it all yet.  Learning comes in many forms".

A logical and rational mind is a good thing to have, but we also need to allow ourselves the freedom to contemplate that which is outside of our own rationale; so that we can learn, grow and expand our reality outside of ourselves: to connect with the process of the universe that allows us to weave dreams.

Obviously the first thought that comes into my mind with regards to the above mentioned, is my recent new adventure into the exploration of scriptures in the bible.  Whilst my Mum thinks it will turn me into a "bible basher", I believe that it will expand upon that which I already hold true in my heart and provide a deeper level of spiritual connection. 

But, if I take Marks view of my pagan beliefs and mix it with Mums view of my scripture reading I shall then be an "Overtly sexualised goat slaying pentagram wearing bible basher".

I know that there are other areas within my life that I could talk about how this relates to also but to be honest, now all I have running through my head is.....

An image of myself wearing nothing but a pentagram, dancing with a tribe of other naked sexualised beings, around a raging fire which encases a slaughtered goat tethered to a maypole, chanting psalms from the bible, to the beat of a deer hide drum under the light of the full moon.

Hahahahaha omgoodness its just so funny, I crack myself up. I have completely lost my rational mind right now!

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